The 28 Day Challenge
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Day 10 - Reflect on Day NINE

Did you find it difficult to answer the questions on day nine? Answer these questions:-

  1. What blocking thoughts, emotions or reservations made you reluctant to accept positive aspects of yourself as a true reflection of who you are?
    • The chief thought is that I might be writing idealisations of what or who I think i am. I mean I'd like to think that I'm hardworking, honest, tolerant, but maybe I'm none of those things.
  2. How did you discount or disqualify your good points?
    • By adding 'I hope' or 'I think' I am.
  3. What beliefs about yourself do these thoughts, emotions or reservations reflect?
    • I seem to be prepared to accept negative aspects without qualification but need to find confirmation from outside myself when it comes to positive aspects. Even that outside qualification can sometimes feel like 'fishing for compliments'. I also suspect that in having a more negative belief about myself, i or others won't have high expectations of me.
  4. How did you feel when your buddy answered the question about you?
    • Very self-concious. I felt a bit awkward about including it, but I knew it would have been a bit pathetic if i didn't.
Day 10 - Reflect on Day NINE
1 How did you feel? A bit indulgent
2 In what way did you find the challenge useful?
Remember even if the challenge was negative this is an excellent learning for yourself.		 I think I might be on to something with the low self esteem means low expectation thing.
3 What insight did you gain? That there might be a very specific reason, other than being totally useless, that I find it hard to accept positive qualities about myself.
4 What did you learn about yourself? That I've developed quite an effective smoke screen to prevent myself and others being disappointed in me.